The last week has been really confusing with quite a few seizures. Both tonic-clonic and complex-partial have been involved and it gets on your back as afterwards you are just fucked up with the confusion that it leaves you wearing for days, your memory screwed yet again.
Days go by and it's ok and then - bang - you don't know what's going on, no reason, no excuse, nothing other than you're buggered, fucked up again - but why, do you know coz I don't. I'm sober for ages, I keep myself well fed so I'm putting on a bit of weight and wham, bang, say thanks to your mam - or was it you sister, I never can tell coz they've both got bad breath but I come to in the ambulance or the hospital, wherever. I've had another fit.
I live on my own now so I look after myself and sometimes I sleep until six in the afternoon. By then the cat is starving, screaming at me for food and it's difficult because of the confusion, it's a real struggle to help out the wee man but I get there in the end.
Don't think that it will ever get any better - whether I'm good or bad - it doesn't really matter now as we're getting to the end of the road and there's still no choice.
Don't think that it will go away. I'm stuck with it for the rest of my natural.
Question is, when will it be worth smiling.
| Epilepsy and confusion |
I live on my own now so I look after myself and sometimes I sleep until six in the afternoon. By then the cat is starving, screaming at me for food and it's difficult because of the confusion, it's a real struggle to help out the wee man but I get there in the end.
Don't think that it will ever get any better - whether I'm good or bad - it doesn't really matter now as we're getting to the end of the road and there's still no choice.
Don't think that it will go away. I'm stuck with it for the rest of my natural.
Question is, when will it be worth smiling.
